So im off work now for 17 whole days! Ive already done a good job at wasting my first one by going to the gym, getting lost in the car (which i hate by the way) and reading. So i didnt get into any universities so...who knows what il do...cos i certainly have no idea! I feel like i just wanna go to a random place and start a new life all over again, judging on past experiences this never works out the way you planned, cos you still end up being yourself no matter how much you try to be someone your not. I think im just gonna have to deal with the fact im a selfish, inconsistent, prat...basically im a sinner, and the sooner i realise who i actually am the sooner i can start to live and rebuild my relationship with Christ. Thats where i need to be.